omfgjuicy

best night ever!

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 06:49:03 GMT

zomga zomga fiasfklajfja i met andrew de tores :D
i saw
a really good band
we the kings
metro station
danger radio
off broadway

and i was so happy!
andrew was so nice
and andy and marvin too :d
i met so many people

AND A GIRL NAMED JELISA!

i think this month is gonna make me smile

completly make me cured :D
im so happy right now

you cant stop the beat!!!!!

wooo fakee peoplee

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 04:15:12 GMT

i havent been on live journal in so loooooonggg! haha i dont acctually remember what happend recentley but things have changed:] like the fact i hate stupid little boys, andd im movingg on. i hate stupid imature little fucking bitches too , they can bite me =p but i also hate how evreyone pretends to like me then talks more shit, then i could possibly imagine, evreyone is fake + evrey one is worthless. i'm also moving i dont know where and i dont know if its this townn , hopefully , but maybe people can choke on there spit/irony and die [: that way i could be happy ahah :D well chrissy is here ! AND IM GOING TO PARTTYY<3 and text a really cute kid... and jessika<3 oh and hairspray is amazing!

8] go see it!

old guys watching porn drunk girls + hook ups are fun :]

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 05:48:01 GMT

last nite at the tragedy show i was sitting with reavey jared jaime and tariq and we turned our head to an old guy looking at girls + porn and half naked girls it was halarious and tariq dedicated swoon to him :] anddd! these girls got drunk and there was a fight but it ended well with happy feet :] lol that was the best nite of summer srsly :] and i love amanda rae jones for making that nite amazing :]

ive been working stuff out with people and im alot happier :] i dont care what you have to say/think about me ,honestly go choke on your spit you filthy cheep hoe :]

tontie was good too :]] i really know what i want now since ive been crying for like 3 hours, i know what i want and i want him.

im still uppp.

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 09:46:29 GMT

tonight was honestly the most amazing night of summer , evreything went so magical :] we got back to my place at 1030/11 ish ate pizza + chilled out evreyone left sept jared nicole kim + jaime. reavey fell asleep but srsly i had the deepest converstation with thoese other three :) and like it was amazing seriously i can't believe i met such amazing people who make me feel amazing :] i realized so much shit was honestly not even my fault. its 544 we watched the sun come up + ran out side for a few :] and seriously no one [sept reavey] fell asleep, we all had so much fun :] and idn what id do without them this day was pure shit . but these four changed my life hah, i know its stupid to say in one night but they seriously didd. and i want love :] i actually have a new boy in mind but im not sure he'll ever care :/

oh and at 5:52 i made my point i was right,hah, woww.

growww up:]

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 06:38:27 GMT

i'm seeing friends i haven't talked to in a while tmmrw. and that makes me supaaa happy :) although, i wish people wouldnt talk to me on there web pages + srsly grow the fuck up :) your fucking approval isnt needed, and so i dont care :) anywaysss i've been changing + doing alot better + not being so emotional about things i dont give a shit about :) i've been realizing im stupid for letting stupid people get to me and i seriously shouldn't worry. dont fucking sugarcult things tell me things straight up seriously it pisses me off. dont like me ? dont talk to me accually tell me so i dont look like an idiot talking to your fucking stupid ass. in the better note i like someone + he likes me ;]

read this :

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 06:24:57 GMT

seriously your a waste of my time. i cant even imagine why i called us best friends, your worthless. i tryed helping you so many times but you treated me like shit. and im sick of acting like your bitch + even though im always there for you and wont tell a soul , you need to fucking get your life straight im sick of you acting like your all high + mighty and ruin my chances with any boy oh and people also need to stop posting things about me in there live journal too, haha:] anyways.

on that note today was good :] i had the chance to think about things and i kinda know what i want, i want him hah, and i want love. i want to be loved. and i want to be happy, unfourtantly i have no friends + no boyfriend to do that. so im working on that too. i srsly think a majority of these people in this town should grow the fuck up :] but o.b.v no one knows how too.

StUpiD kiD 00026: its not hatred its realization & stupidity

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 05:13:46 GMT

hah, like why couldnt we all be mellooooww and lovey?

but evreyone just wants more shit..

its making me sick to look at your face and to pretend like i care it puts me to shame how fake you could be .. and how shallow you others are. i love how evreyone fights today it seems like my holidays always seem to get ruined. i feel sick i want to throw up and i wish someone was here with me right now i cant take this shit, evreyone makes me feel worse then i already do and i dont want to be here anymore.

metuchen*

im most likely moving outta here in a month and im sorry for what ever drama/pain+ anoyance ive caused. i dont know what i did to some of you and i dont know why ive lost a few of you as friends... but im sorry

and to these few people who are mad/confused whatever at me i'm really sorry and theres no way to change the past ? and i dont understand how someone could be as cruel ? but whatever.

somepeopleneedtogrowthefuckup

lalalaa. MY DREAM :O

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 14:14:59 GMT

so its :10:09 a.m and last nite i had a dream, and in my dream i realized that i shouldnt be depressed about this boy because nothing will ever happen. as much as i miss him and wish i could be with him i really shouldn't care. as much as i "love" him i really shouldn't bother. i just want to be happy and i can't be happy if im getting srsly emotionly sick over some one that i shouldn't be emotionly sick over. (emotionly sick: is when im in deep pain and i cant move it makes my body ache and i cry for hours because it wont stop: i feel like im going to die on the spot) anyways im trying to make more fun outta my life and i cant when im moaing around like a zombiee so i need a life :) and im going to try and get one hah, no on reads these but i believe its better for me to write my life out somehow.

i misss my old life :[

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 02:49:45 GMT

so today i realized i really miss him :[ as much as i say i hate him i do miss him so much and i miss being with him. i miss seeing him evreyday and not having to worry about impressing anyone because he loved me for me i miss being with someone who ifelt cared but at the same time i also felt as if i wasnt being loved and as if he didnt want to see me anymore so im not sure what to call this but im not sure if i'll get over this boyy.

i do like another boy though its kinda hard to focus on him if im stuck on this one boy ^ but its kinda confusing and i just want to be happy with someone at least. but BLAH. idnn how to be :l i miss edison.. i miss my old friends. im loosing my metuchen friends quicker then i lost my edison peeps. :l but im with my bestyy now and were watching 28 days later on the big screan so i haffta go.

.... i miss him and i want him backkk
but i have multi-feelings. and at times
i hate him so muchhh and i never want to see him ,again
but i still miss him and i hate that the most <3

rollercoaster

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 06:09:23 GMT

suprisingly today was one giant roller coaster. fa reel. evreything was so good then shityy then perfect :] im stuck here with reavey jared jaime & tariq watchin the longest yard lmfao :] and honestly i couldn't be happier.

i've been slowlyy getting outta this annoying depression shit even though i see him more today then ever and it gets me all upset like.. idn it gets to me and i dont know why because in a way i dont care but i still kinda do ? but anywayyss[ : i found another supaa cute boyy. & again im wasting my timee so i believe i should give up before i start finding hope. since evreyone loves to let me downn. i might as well get an early start seeing im gonna be missrable.. for at least a while.

and lately ive been too nice and it seems no one cares ? like i guess evreyone just enjoys hating me for no reason ? or giving me shit because of nothingg?blah and i just love rumors too.

esp. on my singlee life is no ones conceren i dont mean to sound like "evreyones asking" but evreyons saying i hooked up with them ?
i've pecked guys cheeks and MAYBE lips but srsly thats it. and its not like its nothign more because i only hookup with people i like so stop saying " jelisa hooked up with me " omgaa bullshitt. because i srsly like this boyy. and i hate how people are like 16 and act 5.

lawll life<3

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 03:03:51 GMT

okay so my last live journal i forgot the password too :[ so i was forced to make a neww onee<3

so anyways lifes been starting to become like a roller coaster ups & downs but mostly alot of let downss. im singlee again :l for the first time in five months and its got me pretty damn confused. i do like a boy though :] but im pretty sure he doesnt like me so that brings this self esteem lower :l but whatever ill try :] schools finnally out & im working on getting a job baha, and something else to do then be bored outta my mind downtown evrey damn dayy. i've been fighting with too many people lately but i've also been chyllin with a widdle gurl who saved me alot (: anddd reavey amanda nikki jared jaime eric & tariq alott :) butt yea. my mom is also being homo about this whole summer thingg. and i hopee things are gonna clear upp.